I have been attending births as a midwife for over 12 years. During that
time I have attended primarily homebirths which in general are much more
peaceful and gentle than hospital births. I became trained in water
birth as well and found that to be even more peaceful and gentle still.
discovered HypnoBirthing® before the birth of my own child and taught
myself the method from the book and tapes because I could not take a
class (I was living in Central America at the time).
I did not
want a short birth because after having practiced midwifery for over 10
years, I really wanted to "experience" birth and was not intent on
getting it done quickly- I wanted time to enjoy it. When I tell other
women this they think I am crazy!
birth began on Tuesday and I went about my work in my birth center with
clients. The uterus was doing its job and not needing me for anything
yet. Later that evening after getting home I prepared my birth supplies
and got my birth pool ready. It was so relaxing in the pool I just
listened to music and breathed and occasionally would stand up and sway
with the music- that is my favorite memory of that time in the birth.
I do not
have any memory of all the hours I was having surges- they are like a
fog. I had no one with me so there was nothing to bring me out of
myself. My membranes released in the morning and surges kept on
throughout the day because I did not feel I could give birth in
daylight- I knew I would wait until night came again- and I did. When I
finally felt my baby move down the birth path I had tremendous pressure.
With each surge these primal, guttural noises came out as I breathed him
down to my perineum. I guided his head out with my hands and then waited
for the next surge to come. Once it came he came floating out into the
water and I reached down for him and pulled him to me.
I was so
profoundly touched by my birth experience, which I consider birth in its
purest form, that when I came back to the U.S. I became certified to
since started teaching women HypnoBirthing®. Most of these women have
their babies at home so unfortunately the hospitals aren't being exposed
to it. But the mothers are happy and have such positive and empowering
experiences free from fear. My hope is that I can help many more women
give birth joyfully and that they feel the tremendous empowerment that
birth is meant to be.